Threated Abortion

I was shocked today. Woke up late, walking lazily, straight to the bathroom and I noticed a blood spot and brown spot on my panties. Being a mummy-to-be, i had big zero experience. It was like I macam datang period. But obviously it's not. Ada darah berketul. Duhhh...

I called Azuar. I cakap nak pergi jumpa gynae hari ni. Luckily, my mother in law is here. I showed her the blood spot yang I calit on tissue. Then, she followed me. It was dup dap dup dap journey to the nearby clinic.

Sampai clinic, I terus masuk emergency room and kena buat urine test lagi. Then klua balik for another consultation. Lamanya nak jumpa gynae. I dont know how many time, Azuar is keep calling me from the office. Then, it was my turn.

I told everything to the doc. Doc maybe tahu I takut sangat. Kali ni doc nak buat scan lagi. So, this was my 2nd time to meet my baby. Macam-macam doa ada dalam hati ni. But this time, the machine is more advance. Screen merata tempat, not like previuosly machine.

It was a big relieved, when I saw the baby is still kicking and the heart is still beating. And he/she is bigger now. 5.83cm. The doc said, "Assalamualaikum sayang". It was in dramatic way and I started to cry. I cant stop this tears. "See your baby, ada kepala, ada betis, ada jantung, ada tangan. It's complete. Jangan risau". The doc explained one by one. "Sayang, tunjuk mummy your tangan, tadi makcik nampak sayang garu kepala, tunjuk mummy tangan, cakap mummy sayang tak ada apa-apa". I was hoping Azuar is here. I menangis in front of the doc.

"Mahirah, jom kita dengar your baby's heart beat." Dup, dap, dup, dap, dup. 161. I can hear it in that silence room. Kuat sangat. Bila tahu ada jantung lain berdegup dalam badan sendiri, memang rasa lain macam, dan tak percaya, I'm in that stage now. After that, baru start bersoal jawab dengan doc. Doc noticed rahim I tak kuat. So, she suggested, "Kerja u sekarang makan, tidur, makan, tidur".

I dapat 2hari MC. So, kat rumah dah tak boleh buat kerja banyak2 sangat. A big yeay for me, tak payah pergi office. But still a tonne of works is still waiting for me. Blog ni dah jadi "the journal of my little one" pula. Tak apa lah, in future when he/she can read, he/she will know, how mummy is struggling to carry you here and there. Besides, mummy is hoping, mummy still boleh dapat Ph.D with flying colors. Baby, you know what, papa is a good typist for me! We have teambuilding commitment here. Papa sangat pandai buat references APA style even with his close eyes. If u give it to me, I buat, tapi makan masa berjam-jam.

Mak is still in Vietnam. Nanti I cerita kat dia, sure I menagis lagi. Let she knows by her own. Hehehehe.